it's time..

to take a moment and look at myself and wonder how i got here today.
through everything, school, drama that wasted my life, and family.

to be honest, i'm quite content with where i'm at in life because i know who my real friends are. Those who stick with you through everything, and that means EVERYTHING. we don't have those times where we don't talk to each other. we're there for each other no matter what. it's funny though because some of the people i never expected that i would continue to talk to are some of the ones that are now my really close friends. I started to really understand the meaning of true friendship. Everyone agrees that friends are who will have your back and are there for you no matter what, but I never really found out who would be there 100% until junior year started. I've been very fortunate to have the friends that i have, even the one who is in a different school though because we have a bond that will not be broken. I can say that I'm disappointed that i've drifted from others and they've drifted from me, but honestly, those who I care about and those who care about me will always be there. It doesn't matter to me that some of you guys have changed and don't even bother to talk; if you're happy then that's all that matters.

FAMILY. there is so much to say about this topic. well first off, Cau 2, I will always love you. I want to thank you for everything that you have done for me and my family. You were the eldest of 10 kids and you always had that brotherly instinct. You were like a 2nd father to me, you cared about how I was doing in school and you always reminded me to strive for my best. I have succeeded in school thanks to your support and the urge to make you proud. When you and Cau 3 fought in the Vietnam War, you guys sacrificed your lives to try and protect your country. When you came to the US, nothing was different for you. You continued to be the responsible one and take care of grandpa and hold family parties. Our huge family would not have been so close if it weren't for you and your generosity. No amount of words will be ever enough to tell you how much I love you, how much I looked up to you, and how much I miss you right now. When I heard what happened, I cried my eyes out and then I became numb. It felt like part of my heat was torn off. The last couple of days have probably been the saddest days of my life. I will certainly never forget you and I will never forget the morals you have always taught me in life. You and Cau 3's picture are hanging on my wall and I know you guys are watching me. I love you so much and thank you very much for all you've done for me. I promise I will accomplish my goals and make you proud.