telefono.

my summer wasn't that bad until my phone stopped working. i was full of mixed emotions: pissed, sad, scared, angry,and silent. haven't even told my dad yet because i know he'll be screaming no matter what. don't tell me its no big deal unless you've been through my dad's yells. don't tell me to ''ignore'' his yelling because that will just get me in trouble.

its hard to understand everything that goes on in my family so don't try to think that anyone else has a clue. its not because im just scared of my dad, but its because i care for him. he spends money on ANYTHING i want even if he knows he doesn't have the money for it. i'm not rich, im just really spoiled. all that matters to him is his kids' satisfactions. he yells because he feels as if we dont appreciate it, but he knows we do things on accident.

DONT tell me anything other than its going to be alright because it will go back to normal in a while. dont say ''js stop'' or make rude comments because i'm sick of it. i've put up with a lot of bull with your ''i dont cares'' and ''whatevers'' i dont wanna deal with you right now.


sorry, needed to release anger from me.

but thankfully, out of randys big heart, he's giving me his blackberry he isn't using anymore. thanks randy<3 it means a lot; you are seriously like a big brother to me (: thanks again !

beeach

went to the beach with michelle and shannon on wednesday <3 FREAKIN funn. especially with michelle's sister's three friends ! ahaha i went to the beach again yesterday with my family. it was SO COLLLDD ! and it was only 3 --x but overall it was really fun (: got some yogurt passion from westminster, delicious ;D

scouts this morning til around 2. we had a swimming test at the clubhouse. so useless. FOUR laps to prove that we can go sailing at our camp in like 3 weeks. TREADING for 5 minutes straight was so tiring --x but overall, not so bad ;D

tomorrow, going to keep working on my summer work! MUST get it done

need to hang out moree ! make plans with me !