lately.

it's been quite some time since i've updated this thing.
not in the mood lately i guesss.
school's been quite a drag. not the best it can be, but close to probably the worse.
js kinda stressed lately.
staying up late with a lot of homework, hearing my parents yell at my brother, seeing my mom's stupid boyfriend everywhere, and so much more;
its all been quite a lot.
i never realized how much he hurt.s. i've done so much to try and stop and i want to stop so badd.
i've tried for so long, it isnt so easy. ive even tried to work it out, but he didnt. everything works if both sides does their part.
i'm tired of it. i'm tired of trying to be to solve it with him, i'm tired of trying to forget, i'm tired of it completely. the only thing i ever asked for was at least the reason why. js WHY. but nothing. i dont get it. i think i deserve js the reason ? if youre going to talk to her, and not me, at least i want to know why. is it because shes skinny as hell, or she dresses way differently then i do? WHY. all i want to know is why our friendship went down the drain. just why... what happened to our promise of sticking through high school together? you were honestly the only one i thought i would go through highscool with. you made all my problems disappear because you knew how to make me laugh and you knew whenever there was something wrong.
i'm sorry if what i did was cause stress and ''drama'' to your life, but you stuck with her so im sure thats nto the reason.
i just want to know why..